I embrace Puno with my eyes, he has two faces and a smile that moves in both directions.
My stomach is turned rotten, Puno, there is no power in this house after the storm.
I fill my body with tea, and Greek philosophy.
I’ve killed hundreds of ants with my index finger, as they pour from a crack behind the tap. They are so stupid.
You say - Maybe we are like these ants to God and he could look down on us and decide to do the same.
I say - I feel I am surely an ant with less legs and more time.
I pray God will make my death pass quickly, and with the same mercy that I show to these ants. If I can even call it mercy. Can I, Puno? Do ants feel pain? I am a monster. Though I could be God. Surely I am better than an ant. Where are you now, Puno?
I chew nervous vitamins and wait for you to get home.
First written in late 2018. Completed in 2023.
Joel